It is not important who I am. The information
on this website is not mine, it belongs to all of us. Right here and
now I happen to be the one translating the information so it can be
picked up by others. Nevertheless, I can imagine that you are wondering
who I am and where I come from. So here we go.
I was born September 19, 1965, and I have lived in Amsterdam,
The Netherlands, ever since. At this time my immediate
family consists of a father, two sisters, two brothers in law, a niece
and a nephew; unfortunately, my mother passed away on February 17, 2015. I have some other family — uncles, aunts, cousins
— with whom I have no direct contact.
Besides my immediate family and my uncles, aunts, cousins, there are
some people I sincerely call 'friend' or 'girlfriend' and some people
I see as 'acquaintances'. All these people call me "Frits Spoelstra".
My quest began with a simple question:
"What is true?"
That was the only thing I wanted to know. I could not believe that
what I saw happening around me was really true. It all seemed too
crazy and I wanted to know if it's really true, and if it was not
true, I wanted to know what is true.
It was a bit like what Morpheus years later would say in the movie
"You know something. What you know you can't
explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that
there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is,
but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad."
It all started with David M. Summers and John Kuhles who told me about
UFOs, The New World Order, the manipulation of the mind and secret
societies that control our daily lives.
After some ten years examining these issues I came across the concept
of 'everything is an illusion' — thanks to David Icke.
This new concept turned my whole world upside down. It led me to Advaita,
Zen, Taoism and Non-dualism. A new job in 'De Roos' (a spiritual
centre in Amsterdam) gave me the opportunity to explore this extensively.
Thanks to a wonderful girlfriend I eventually ended up with A
Course in Miracles and Spiritual Autolysis by Jed McKenna.
In total I've been searching some 25 years.
Besides searching by myself, I've communicated and shared a lot with
dear friends in real life, with strangers on forums and in online
chat rooms, I’ve read a lot of texts and books and experimented
The time has come for this knowledge and experience to be turned into
a website that clearly and directly expresses how one can awaken from
the dream state, in case this someone really wants to.
This is that website.
I now invite you to click on "Autolysis" in order
to start waking up. I wish you success.
For additional information about me and my quest, I refer you to the